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Thursday, 02 October 2008

i believe this blog is officially dead. awesome!
time to link my new blog :)
www.droppinglids.blogspot.com

it's different from how it is here. love it or leave it :)

Wednesday, 23 July 2008

This IS it..

So i've started a new blog.
not gonna link it here, at least not yet.
would like to keep it private for awhile, before all these kaypochees come butting into my life again.

cheers.
untitled

im so fed up.
with people with family with friends with studies with myself.
i'm drained

Tuesday, 22 July 2008

If Only

If only life is as simple as math, being able to calculate the possibilities and knowing the correct ways to get the right answers.
As the clock is ticking away the seconds, i would not deny that i'm excruciated by the ways human. The whole idea and preference of human towards the ideal life eluded me.
Yes, I'm learning more and more about life, about what matters and what not. Sad to say but true, some things are just too good to be true. &i've also realized that people are always expecting far more than you can ever achieve. or more than you ever want in your life.

Why?

Is life really all about getting a high-paid job?
Is life really all about getting to the top?
Drive a luxurious car?
Live in a big ass multi million house?

For?

i believe some thinks that those achievements are more of a proving the capabilities of one self and all.

but still, what if that's not the life i'm looking for?
and if i were to tell them the future i see myself in;;
would they laugh?
(oh i know they will talk, front or behind me. that's what people do, they talk. don't they?)

As much as many of you out there are denying, we are all taking the safe way out, aren't we? i know i am,
following what seems the majority is doing, high school, college, universities. get your degree and masters bla bla bla.
the PROMISING way.
im sure we have all thought about choosing another way out, but how many of us are actually brave enough to put thoughts into actions? choosing and becoming who they really want to be?

i know a few acquaintance who did it.
and boy, how they are loving every minute of their life.
i just wonder, would i ever have enough courage to do so?because i really want to.
studies really are just not "my thing"

this post is as random as ever,
just a thought that suddenly swept thru my mind.
something for me to ponder about. hmm.

oh well i guess at the end of the day, i'll just forget about the idea and continue my revision for my Sociology test tomorrow. and the thoughts will come back again, soon. i know my drift.
crap. i really gotta go study now. 4 chapters and im 12 hours away. daymn -_-
=)

see ya

Monday, 21 July 2008

dum dee dah

WELL HELLO WORLD

i know i haven't been updating but i promise soon

my blog has a longg way to go to actually catch up with my life today
heh happening mar =p

tons and tons of pictures coming up.
unfortunately none for Su Ting's 18th at The View, EQ, she lost her camera. iknowright -_-
and Ting En's 18th too.

oh i have streaks of gray extensions on my hair now
it doesn't look too bad, i think

till then;;

PEACE

Monday, 26 May 2008

wow

i'm totally blissed-out.
these few weeks have been very extraordinary

one after another happy moments with a chain of surprises

reading back my previous post made me realised i have SO MUCH to blog about.

*

out of the foremost is of course, Ed<3 is back.

with the others too, for summer.
but Ed will be back till January, then we'd go together to the states.

as for today, had another surprise visit from bell&jerm at Infinity.
what an odd place to throw a surprise but i'm so happy they are back! *big smiles*
they touched down on the day Ed and i left for REDANG.
yes the trip was another surprise trip planned by him but i'll get to that later.

anyway,
we were playing CS with JH&Jess when suddenly;

"Jerm connected"
"bell connected"

we turned around and there they were, sitting a few rows behind us.
haha, happy sungguh wei

time really flies and it's hard to believe you guys are back, after being gone for almost half a year.
i'm sensing a lot of fishing trips around. excited YAY!

here are some pictures on babe's birthday.
yes it was so long ago, i know. but i feel like throwing it in
chillax session at Sunset Bistro

babe, MingYu, CK, Eu-gene, Me, Marilyn, SeeKhee

SeeKhee, *insert name*, *insert name*, Adrian, FangMei

&some random pictures for the random outings,
btw, all these pictures are not edited.
really, just couldn't be bothered zzz

heh i like this picture of goofy and gf

Guan, Arthur, Ed

ever-annoying me and pretty Jess

through the glass. JH&Jess

it has been awhile since we took a picture together beary

on a random note,
i'm still quite unfamiliar with my lappy,
haven't really took the time to explore all the apps;
esp the photo settings and stuff
rotation suddenly seems so confusing.
-.-

SO ABOUT THE VERY SURPRISING REDANG TRIP WHICH I FOUND OUT JUST ONE DAY BEFORE THE ACTUAL DEPARTURE DATE,
it took me awhile for my laggy brain slowly perceive the truth.

i was so excited the night before that i had only few hours of sleep,
partially it was b'cause of W.O.W. that bloody game is so daymn addictive!
AS I WAS SAYING...
i was just freaking happy knowing the fact that everything has been planned, paid and confirmed.
seriously, i lost count of the times to Pulau Redang; due to bad plannings.

summary of the whole trip: awesomely awesome.

Ed and i took a flight to Kuala Teregannu, with Firefly.
then we waited for very very long 2 hours at the Merang Jetty.

i slept, we sang. and obviously, vained

and ate the worst bowl of cendol ever.

paid the total amount of RM80 for 2 person to get ourselves to the Redang island.
on a very small yatch.

the hotel we stayed is called Berjaya Redang Beach Resort.
very good service, very nice people.
once we reached the hotel, we were all drenched and tired
oh you wouldnt imagine how happy i was to know we that we had a buggy to carry us around.

i gasped at my first glimpse of the ocean

it totally gave me a sweeping blow

the view from our room balcony was spectacular

the perfectly contrasted ocean was so beautiful,
like nothing i have ever seen, not even the beaches in Koh Samui
and the hot voluptuous bods of the ladies sunbathing topless.
it's like, paradise man haha
i couldn't resist the temptation of the picturesque beach
we dumped our bags in our room, changed and headed straight down to the beach and swam
was lucky we did cause MY PERIOD CAME THE NEXT DAY.
mahaicbb.
of alllll dayysssss it had to come on that trip itself.
i was SO friggin disappointed lar ok!
i wanna go diving again soooooooooooo bad!!

but Ed managed to cheer me up and told me we would have fun the other way.
simply relax and enjoy the moment.
for the sake of the quality time

the next morning, i woke up to the sweetest thing ever
i was out on the balcony to feast my eyes on the ocean when i saw

it didn't look that far away while i was standing on the balcony
but it looks so tiny on frame. zzz

i know it's blur but it actually says
"Happy 18th. Me U"

sweet, kan?
Happy 18th Month Anniversary to you too :)

we paid another RM100 for a ride to the Long Beach, the more happening part of the island
with more people and more shops.
and more noise pollution =p

spent the day at the beach before we headed back to our quiet but chun side of the island
only to find myself sulking on Ed's secretive and mysterious behavior before dinner
i was getting grumpy and when he didn't want me to eat knowing of my bad mood when im hungry,
i was at the edge of losing it before i see

a candlelight dinner by the beach.
no other tables were there except for our table.
seriously, i have no idea how this guy managed to clinched it out.

he even had these ppl to sing for us.
so stressful lar ok
i really didn't know whether to eat or to look at them.
either way it was so awkward as we were the only table on the whole beach.
i wished i watched more movies at that time.
how do ppl usually react to this anyway?
it'd be so rude if you just continue feasting on your food while these poor souls had to watch you eat.
not one not 2 but 3 pairs of eyes looking at you.

they even had our names on the menu.
for a moment i actually thought he was gonna propose HAHA
but i really had that thought until i slapped myself out of it.
LOL

but it was so romantic i can't deny
we even pampered ourselves to the spas and massages
we spent freaking RM600 just on the massages
i feel so guilty after that zzz

then it was time to go home =(

oh and i took my first trishaw ride for the first time since i was like, 4?

and their local delicacy;;

nasi dagang

on the plane. coming home

on our last night, we were walking by the beach after dinner and the starry sky was one of the most beautiful night i have ever seen.
it was like a wall painted with black and fully litted by stars.
clusters and clusters of them.
we layed down on the clean and peaceful beach;
feeling the white, soft powdery sand..
just at that moment, i couldt finally let everything off my mind,
&just breathe.
.... breathe.

beautful. `jus perfect. like no other

thanks Ed.
for everything.

Sunday, 25 May 2008

back from REDANG
working on my next post; will be up soon

Monday, 05 May 2008

greetings from the green goldfish

HELLOS PEOPLE

hello hello!

apologies for the absence from this blog;
not my intention to stay aloof, internet has been so damned gay.
gay gay gay
i'm currently stealing the net from Starbucks @e-gate.
how sad is that? zzz

i have finally stopped working in Bed.
cause of college and stuff.
yes, i'm going back to college

kinda emo lar on the last day, i enjoyed working there
the people especially; fun people to be around with ;)

had a photoshoot with Jeannie.
with Tia and Mia, for MichOMG
was fun tho. with those really funky costumes.
i felt like i was in Las Vegas =p

i have truckloads of pictures,
im just so lazy to upload them.but SOON, soon.

Chris' poolside farewell party at The View Condo

we girls were fighting so hard just to stay DRY
begged and begged to not be thrown into the pool
we literally had to go down on our knees.zzzz some people

men + alcohol + swimming pool = not good.

the rest of the pictures will be on the next post.

gf's birthday has jsut passed
May 1st, we had steamboat. *yumms*
after that was a session of chillax at Sunset Bistro ;)
we just love that place
happy belated 19th babe!
i wished you on time ok~
just gotta do it here, yawknow.
just a lil late; courtesy of the gayness of the internet

i love you GIRLFRIEND

*

no one can actually understand how i'm feeling now
it's jst so weird, these feelings that i have been trying to hard to ignore;
to hide. all those fear and instinctive state of mind deriving myself from being hurt.

after all these months, i am somehow happy to announce that i have successfully pushed them aside.
somewhere i don't even remember, but familiar.
it's like it's evaporated to the air around me, getting ready to pour down on me anytime.
and when they do come raining down, i can hardly breathe.

he's coming back in 9 days.
if you were to tell me this same news 2 months back,
i'd be jumping on my seat, running around smiling like an idiot.
but now...

things are so different.

how about him?
and him?

i'm so damn fucking lost.

*cries*

Tuesday, 15 April 2008

randomness

found some old pictures
when Marcus was down from S'pore
this is gonna be a photoblog;; let em pictures speak =)

we played some card games and almost all of us were gone;
esp Min haha

my two crazy cousins &no, we don't look alike.

CST's surprise comeback;

bbq by the beach, back to school canteen, twister at my house &not forgetting, kitty's bday

one week filled with joy with my girls <3
OH BTW, thanks for the CHEESECAKE, ting.
i have to agree with kitty tho, TOO SWEET

so i've been clubbing quite a lot,
the main reason why i've been quite sick for the past weeks zzz

first time clubbing with CK and errr, Yean Hou? sorry if i got your name wrong
anyways we had fun, just drink &drink &dance &dance
drink to keep yur worries away yaw =p

the first picture i had with YOU miss JolineCheong after like, 2 years?
&it's the only one we had for that night
GOSH what kinda godsister is this?
-_______________________-

lots more pictures but im getting so lazy
till next time~

toodles.

Monday, 07 April 2008

sorry for the lack of updates,
i lost my mood to blog, what to blog about anyways?
oh my lil idle life (:

check out this video for now tho,
my babygirl's dance with DUS for RED FM
poor thing, she was working 7 days nonstop dancing her dainty butt off

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*

i've been pondering about some things recently, i realized as the time comes closer, the weaker my heart gets.
sometimes i really wish things weren't the way it is. not that im gonna kvetch;;
ahh, can anyone ever question the complexities of life?
my heart is so full it feel likes a thousand knives pointing at the apex of my heart. so suffocating that it feels like there are just no room for mistakes anymore.
i know i've done shits which i know i never should have, but then again, what's growing up ey?
everything happens for a reason? fuck yes, no question about that.
i wouldn't wanna change anything that has happened for any of that matters. some people just don't get it.
too ignorant about people's needs.
or just plain simpleminded.
selfish? maybe

whatever it is, i guess all i can say is that i'm trying.
i know i may not be the best, but i'm trying to be better;
i may not make the most wise choices, but i think i'm smart enough to know what's best for me.
naive you might say, but to tell you;
i'm the most skeptical person you'd ever know. so yeah..
i guess what i can say is, if you are really ain't satisfied....
then maybe you should just fuck off please leave me alone (:
peace.

p/s : pls note that there is no one in particular that i was relating, in case some of you gets a lil thicked-skin
i just rambled my way thru this post.

God bless yaw ~